Depression, Anxiety and a new Job?

Do what is best for you. Maybe going headlong into a job was not the best idea. Although 2 hours here and there seems a good start. If you have trouble leaving the house that is where you need to start. Go down to the shop and get some chocolate....that kind of thing. Take the bins out. walk down the road and back again, and if you see someone smile or even say "Hi" ...unless you don;t want to, because you don't have to.

Do not put pressure on yourself to be uncomfortable, sure it's good to do things that put you out of your comfort zone, but why make yourself unnecessarily uncomfortable. "wear sunscreen" by Baz Luhrman has a line in it "Do one thing every day that scares you" and that can be the tiniest little thing. Just test yourself sometimes, but not every time, anxiety does not mean you must do it, only that you don't want to, and some days you may be able to overcome it, and some days you won't.

So do what scares you, if you are strong enough.

Stick with it beccajay . Reading in between the lines I get the impression that you are being too hard on yourself. Firstly, you took the decision to get the job so obviously you felt that the time was right for you. I bet if you asked your colleagues they would say that you are wrong in how you think that they perceive you. Lack of confidence on your part sounds the problem and anxiety is surfacing. I have been through a similar scenario when I was asked to become a club leader for people with disabilities. On my first visit I was fine but within a few weeks in I was a starting to feel like you. I didn't want to let anyone down and so I stuck with it. It was the best thing that I have ever done. It has also resulted in more doors opening for me. Don't be hard on yourself. Believe in yourself and learn to love yourself. You were given the job because your employer wanted to give it to you , they thought that you were what they were looking for. You can do it and it will get better. Stop questioning your abilities. Go with the flow. Good luck.x