Feeling overwhelmed

Hey hunny,

How you doing today ?x

Hi....I hope it's ok to comment here. I have not commented on here yet. I am really struggling to cope at the moment and I dont know where to turn. I dont think my meds are working at the moment and even every day things seam to be really hard. I have an 8yr old daughter whom I love very much but I dont want her round me at the moment and that makes me feel worse.

I completley understand where you are coming from, I have suffered with depression for many years but for a while now I have felt the same, I did not feel or think my meds were or are working and did not know what to do, many times I have had thoughts that I should never think of, I have got so tired of fighting depression day in and day out knowing it will never leave me completely it will always be hovering in the background and that I cannot bare.  I spoke to my doctor asking if you can have 2 anti depressants at the same time his answer was no not really so that scared me if I had to come off my regular anti depressants I was scared of feeling even worse than I do now and thinking of going through more side effects was not something I would want to go through, so I left asking my doctor, I asked some other doctors, mental health nurses no-one had an answer for me but also never gave me any other option to help deal with my illness, I eventually rang doctors surgery again and the receptionist obviously asked what the problem was as if they are fully qualified really gets my goat I just said I need to talk about my tablets so she suggested that the pharmacist gave me a ring the next day, when she rang me the following day I explained how I feel and things im thinking can't see any other way and she said they don't always give 2 antidepressants at the same time but she mentioned another antidepressan that would be compatible with the one I am taking and I started it yesterday all my muscles are aching and I have got some other side effects but I suppose it's worth a try because it was getting to the point where I could see no other option but to end my life.  I also need to be out when my  kids and husband are at home I just can't be with them all for hours I need a break which is something he does not understand and never will, it's hard I'm still fighting my depression now but it is getting extremely hard im getting very tired don't think it will ever go away if I can't manage my depression I know I will not get to be an old lady.  I also gave to go and have cbt therapy which does help at the time of talking but I do have times where I struggle to get myself motivated to go for my appointments so I have missed a few but I am trying it is hard but I understand x

Communication ,along with Medication is the biggest remedy in my opinion.

Just being able to say how you are feeling and not being judged is vital. My angel was a penfriend whom i have never met but have corresponded with for a very long time She had overcome her mental health problems and so never judged me. Every evening until i started to get my life back on track she would email me or send positive posts that she had found on the internet.

That is why this site is such a good idea. You can say it how it is and fellow sufferers understand.

If  you can't motivate yourself to attend CBT then why don't you make use of this site and message  your thoughts/feelings?  Granted it isn't as personal as face to face but sometimes it is easier to write things down instead of saying them directly.

Depression is a very tiring, draining illness but life can be better . Life can be good again for you in time, but you have to stick with it ;what are your options otherwise?

Don't expect too much and take small steps to recovery. Be patient with yourself. Concentrate on you for a while and the rest will follow. Feel free to private message me for support.

Little by little, day by day,

I wish you well . Take care. x