worthlessness

My name is Mary and I am 22years of age. I suffer with depression, anxiety, ME , Fibromyaligia and PTSD. I always feel like I am a burden and a huge disappointment. From a young age I was abused by my parents physically and emotionally and sexually by my father. This has left me like I not good enough. It makes me feel like everyone sees me as a evil unacceptable human me. I feel so worthless that I am suprised that anyone could care for me. I feel undeserving if anyone is nice to me. I has effected my life, my relationships and friendships. I feel like I am not good enough every single day.. I keep getting panic attacks, sometimes 3/4 a day. I also always in a low mood and I dont know what to do. I need help I feel like nobody understands me and I just want to stop feeling like this.. :(

Hi Mary. Did they give you a therapist yet? I feel one would be good. I think therapy has helped me a lot since I started. It's tough going though.

I think it is ok to feel low. It's just being constantly low and down gets to you. I tried going to hospital twice, and there is nothing much they can do but medicate you, and I've been on all the medications and nothing works.

I found some of the therapy has helped me though.