Depression and fear and anxiety!!

Louise, My heart goes out to you. Sadly, I have to agree totally with Janet; walk away. I speak from my own personal experience following my marriage of 30 years breaking up. We were soulmates. I too loved him so much but like your partner; he too played mind games with not only myself but our family. He spent his 50 th birthday apparently abroad working; he was away with his lady friend. I supported him for 3 years, I accepted him back ,only for him to run away to her again after  few days. He was diagnosed as being "psychotic and delusional' but that didn't prevent him planning to marry in secret whilst promising us all that he would return and how much he loved us. 

I was in such a bad place mentally ,I couldn't believe my life ever changing for the better. Someone at the start told me that she felt the same when he ex cheated but how I in about 5 years time would be so happy. It is true, as I am in a wonderful place in my life. You ex is playing mind games; its the best feeling to have 2 people in competition for you. He too ,would tell me how we would be together in time. He even had the nerve to tell me how he had to weigh the options up have 2 years of happiness or stay with his family??? He would cry ,beg forgiveness and then walk away .He would also send me gifts/ letters etc proclaiming is love. I was such a fool but as the saying goes. "There is no fool like an old fool and love is blind"

I had to learn to channel my anger ;at him, but more at myself for believing in him and allowing him to hurt me so much .

You will get to a better place, it just takes time Concentrate on you and the rest will follow.

Big hugs

Julie xx

Hello,

I don't usually post about these sorts of things, but a few things have happened recently in my life that has left me both very sad and feeling tense and on edge. There are some financial problems with my business and I can't seem to find any motivation to make things better. At the same time, I just lie awake all night worrying, obsessing. It's like I can't turn my mind off. Does anyone know how to deal with this? It's exhausting.